Welp, somebody hit 30 today. You don't get points for the right answer! Honestly though, I'm mostly fine at the moment. Drinking... If all goes well, my life will become more... meaningful later this year. I'll keep you posted.
Congrats! Welcome to the club. I'm only 1 month and 13 days older than you, so we're practically the same age. Did you manage to hit the age crisis yet? Paljon onneeaa vaan! Paljon onneeaa vaan! Paljon onnea Hunter! Paljon onneeaa vaaaaan!
I hit my age crisis couple of years ago. Felt just tired and pointless for a while. Some people here may even remember it.
Depends. If you can't look at yourself on a mirror on some days and think everybody hates you 'cause you are an silent, sometimes overly sarcastic introvert who hasn't really accomplished anything worth mentioning in his life. Hasn't ever had a proper relationship. Has only few people considered friends. Often spends time listening to melancholic, even "dark" music, overanalyzing his own life and behaviour and repeating to yourself that you are a decent person in the end and should not worry so much. Even if you feel awkward around other people you are polite and never want any harm to people, as naive and idealistic as it sounds. Which leads to your fear that someday, somewhere somebody pushes you over the edge and you do something you have promised yourself never to do. I've snapped once in my life. Once. I don't want to see what I would do now as grown-up man. And secretly I still want to. And in the end your secret wish is to someday meet love of your life who you can simply hug and say: "Thank you for existing". Simple as that. Yeah, good times all around indeed... Anyways, I'm feeling better nowadays, but I've always been lonely 'cause of my reserved personality and childhood. It's something really difficult for me to change by myself so I just have to live with it. Find the good things about it, rare as they may be. And some people see me as this "mysterious silent badass"... *Sigh* Yes... I find it adorable, even flattering sometimes, but still... Let's just say you would probably be a bit disappointed and yet positively surprised if you would meet me in real life. Think that was enough philosophizing for now this Sunday evening. Bottom line: I should be happy as I am. I'm not doing nearly as bad as I sometimes think. And thanks for you peeps too. As small as this gaming group might be from some perspective I still like being part of it.
Happy birthday Hunter. Also, to be completely honest, it's like reading myself, almost. Like, seriously, nearly word for word. I know teh feels. Here's to better times ahead, and growth from the past.
In so many ways I feel exactly the same. Clouds are beautiful. It's nice to sit outside and stare at them. Of course it's difficult and I risk getting migraine due to photosensitivity but, them clouds, beautiful. I think people don't give clouds the credit they deserve for their beauty.
I think there are more people here who get it than you may realize. Quite a few of us are/were attracted to a more online centric lifestyle because (in my case at least) we had such rotten luck dealing with "real" people (I'm not convinced any of you are real :looks around suspiciously: ) . Being an introvert doesn't mean - normally - that you can't deal with people at all, except in extreme cases. Most introverts just find it tiring. Like we need to go be alone to recharge after talking to people. Anyway, happy late birthday!
The problem is more or less amplified 'cause I've been jobless for a while now. If I'd be working, I'd have the basic interaction during days and would spend my time relaxing on evenings and weekends. All would be quite fine. Now I'm just alone most of the time and even introverts need some company every now and then. It's basic human psychology, which is funny in a way as I'm reading about social psychology atm. Universe doesn't lack in irony, that's for sure. But, as I said earlier, this year may be a good one for me in more ways than one. Wait and see.
Depends where you live, lad... *Taps one of the best cities in Finland on the map* Want to get burned some more?
